Our Anniversary......

In less than a week Eddie and I will be celebrating 14 years of marriage. Some people didn't think that we would even make it 5, but we showed them....we are gluttons for punishment! Just kidding.

Eddie and I met on a blind date at Pretty Lake Church where we also were married less than a year later. I thought that he was shy....if you know Eddie he is about the farthest thing from that, come to find out he was just really nervous. Eddie and I came from homes that were a little different than your average American homes and I think that we were almost like 2 lost souls that immediately connected. I knew the day I met him that he was the one for me, he just got me. I think that everyone around us seen it too, we are just so much alike and share the same views on so much, except politics....on that subject I believe that he is a little off on.

Our wedding even though I have no regrets in marrying Eddie is honestly something that I would like to forget. We lost all the pictures from it in the fire and that doesn't even bother me. It seemed like our families simply wanted no happiness for us what so ever ( I later realized with the help of a therapists, they had no happiness). My Dad actually went to our Pastor (at the time) and had him call off the wedding, my grandmother wouldn't come to the wedding if it wasn't done by that Pastor...my in-laws brought alcohol and wore pajama pants to the reception which was held at a place that wouldn't allow alcohol. They nearly got kicked out! My Dad again interfering, walked me down the aisle saying "You know that you can still back out!". Add to the fact that my Mom couldn't be there , and the next best thing to a mom died 6 months before, it was just not the fun day that you see on TLC.

We have talked about renewing our vows down the road but to be honest I am not sure if I would want our families there, and that would probably cause problems. I do however fantasize about Tobey and Edwin walking me down the aisle and Emily and Melody in matching dresses throwing down the rose petals. Lena, Alison and Olivia being the most beautiful bridesmaids ever. Maybe some day.....

Amazingly, it has taken nearly our entire marriage to realize that it is our life and ours only. Before 2008 I would only do things if our parents approved and would cower back at their words of disapproval and anger. Now, I know that in my heart that Eddie and I know the best for our family, and a lot of things that we have been doing are right for us. I wish I could have figured that out back in 1996. I guess that it is never too late though.

I realized that even if you are not given the best of families at times, you can't change it. But I did realize that you can create your own family. I found my own "created" family 2 years ago this week when I walked into Living Stones. I used to think that there was something wrong with us, or that maybe we were just not worthy of happiness, or even love. For the first time I have people in my kids lives that love them unconditionally even though they are not any relation to them, and that is just huge. Isn't it amazing what love can do for a person? I don't know where our lives would be without that love.

I apologize if this was kind of a weird blog...every now and then I just feel the need to sit and type, sorry if I went all OPRAH on you. Have a good one! Live your best life!!!! (That was an OPRAH line, if you didn't get it!)